this is the end (probably)...

so i've found another blogging site to post to...
it's not much different, just different enough to capture my attention for awhile.
this blog will still be accessible through a link provided on my new account, and the posts can be read rss style through the rss link as well.
for all who care - it's
http://shriekingvioletta.tumblr.com/

thanks for keeping up with me!

i took my ring off today
and put it on the edge of the bathtub.
i was giving our son a bath
and i don't really like getting it wet...
it afforded me some thoughts -
what if i lost it?
would that lessen what we have/had?
would i cry?
what if it fell
back between
the tub and the hot water heater?
would you tear the bathroom apart to retrieve it
or would you just tell me to go out and buy a new one?
you never were much for
symbolism.
gestures, items,
intuitions
never held much fascination for you.
you call it
"logic"
i call it
"lacking".
regardless,
that ring is mine.
it will never be part of the collected
stuff
that falls under the category
"ours"
inevitably,
everything will become "yours" or "mine..."
things like the
television,
computer,
fridge and stove,
china hutch
and
couch set.
those can all be divided.
even the dog
would be put up to a vote.
this ring,
though,
wouldn't even warrant a discussion.

i don't want to spend a whole lot of time on here right now - joey's asleep in bed and i would love the opportunity to snuggle-up with him and catch up on dexter...
a quick update with hopefully a more in-depth explanation to follow -
1. we STILL haven't sold this stupid house.obviously, the secret is far too-complex of a theory for me to subscribe to.
2. i'm officially done my first semester of college. i did quite well for someone who screwed-around so much in high school. i saw one of my old teachers a few weeks ago, and she acted like she wasn't at all surprised i'd finally made it back to school. she certainly wasn't surprised at my choice of instruction either... i've also made some very good friends, which is nice - even though it re-enforces just how old i've become...
3. christmas is a mere 8 days away. for the third year in a row, i am done my shopping early (well, there's still a couple of things that need to be picked up, but in comparison to years prior, this is a HUGE improvement). this year should be fun as joey is dexterous enough to open his own presents. he's also old enough to enjoy presents, and he's mobile enough to reach the tree. "should" being the operative woird in all this...

so - i'm off to watch dexter and snuggle with my boy... i'll try to write something with substance soon - i promise!

dear corioliss... or "don't even pretend you offer a one-year warranty if you don't intend to honour it!"

Thank-you so much for oh-so appropriately (and predictably) waiting out my year-long warranty. I really appreciate your customer service - I'm sure the phrase "your request is being dealt with" means a lot to your company, and I'm sure you use it just as much.
As for my loyalty to your company, well, it's just about as valuable as your company's guarantee and word.
I see you've recently set up a booth in a mall in the city I attend school. i'll make sure to tell every girl I see at it (and every girl who will listen on my blog, facebook account, and every other facet I can use) that your "one-year unconditional warrenty" is about as useless as my melted straight iron.

Sincerely,
April Colby - once-but-no-longer-satisfied customer

i should probably be going to bed (or getting ready for bed), but the past few weeks have been crazy and i'm not exactly sure when i'll get another opportunity to write.
school's going well. i'm the third-oldest in my course, and i feel it daily. so many of the kids oin my class don't seem to care. maybe i care too much because i've been waiting for an opportunity like this for so long - who knows?
regardless, i don't really want to write about school. frankly, i dn't want to waste time when i could be sleeping. i need to write about something a bit more important...
one of mine and joe's friends died friday. his truck was hit by a sewage truck on the 13th (i think - i can't really remember and don't want to bother looking. wasn't important anyways) and the dillon on september 11th. he was in a coma until they took him off life support.
people die every day - people our age die every day. people we know die a bit less frequently, but it happens. i wasn't particularly close to kenny, though i liked him enough. he was a great guy - he made people smile, he laughed a lot and had a genuineness about him that so few have now. that alone should be enough reason for me to lament his untimely death. there's so much more to it, though...
kenny was a newlywed (well, as much as joe and i are), and a daddy. his daughter mya is a little older than joey - five months to be exact. joe had gone four-wheeling with kenny before. we hung with the same crowd. he was very close with joe's cousins - in fact, he was leaving gerry and erin's to go home when the accident occurred.
i think what really makes this accident so scary is how close to home it hit - that could have been joe. if the universe doesn't care that, on average, probably only five cars run that intersection daily, it probably doesn't care which 28 (or, in joe's case, 29)-year-old it takes from his baby girl either... candice and kenny could have just as easily been at joe's funeral while i tried to keep my composure (probably not half as good as candice did - she was a rock today, and i was too much of a baby to even go up to her) as my world fell down around me.
it's also impossibly unfair. just totally unfair.
so, to everyone who reads this (all, oh, four of you? and jackie too! ;) ), please, hold your babies a little tighter tonight. even if your significant other pisses you off, "forgets" to do the dishes, then expects sex, give them a hug and try not to be too mad at them. it's just not fucking worth it, and i've got to start realizing that...
r.i.p. kenny - you've made a bigger impact than you'll probably ever know...

so, i got the call from the mtcu yesterday. my funding got approved, so that's a good thing. unfortunately, i probably won't see a dime until about three weeks after this coming wednesday. so, in other words, i'll still be poor for a couple of weeks, unless i get an emergency loan from the school (which i may just have to do). these past few weeks have been some of the most stressful ones i've ever lived through. i don't think i've ever had so many pimples at once - honestly - it's ridiculous!
so, i went back-to-school shoppng today. i was completely overwhelmed. i had no idea what things are supposed to cost anymore, and i wasn't exactly sure what i needed. hopefully, i can make it rhough the first couple of weeks with what i picked up... ni know there's still a bunch of things i'll need, but they'll have to wait. it certianly wasn't like when i was in high-school and mommy would give me her grand and toy credit card and tell me to "get what i needed"... that normally meant about thirty dollars in pens, maybe a hundred in binders, the newest and neatest whiteout, twelve different colours of highlighters, art pencils, white gum erasers, sketch pads, and always forgetting lined paper. well today, she would have been proud - i bought 200 sheets of lined paper, and it rang through at 33 cents. it pertty much made my day (which is a direct testament to how boring my life has become).
on a different note, the "for sale" sign went up today. very exciting. i can only hope this place sells - fast. i want that other house so much i'm dreaming that we're already living there. my biggest fear right now is not getting it and having to styay here. my whole positivity plan was actually based around the things i wanted not coming to fruition - kind of a way to get me to not put so much stock into things i can't control. unfortunately, i'm still the same old april. i know is we don't get that house, i'll be devastated. so, let's all hope everything works out! ;)

finally...

the papers are signed, initialed dated and faxed - we should be getting our "for sale" sign very soon... the pictures have been sent to our agent, and the house should be posted on mls either this afternoon or tomorrow.
echoing tanna's statements, how do we make someone fall in love with our house? i doubt anyone will, but we still have to try. i never even liked this place, so it's really difficult for me to understand anyone wanting it. but, someone will - i just have to be positive.
photo group tonight... i don't even know where we're going to shoot. i don't really even have time - i have to get groceries, and there's still so much to do around here.
i still haven't got a call from the mtcu either. i was told they'll be notifying everyone by friday (which is tomorrow). i'm scheduled to start class tuesday. at least the wait wil be over soon...