another rainy day... i should go back to bed, but i doubt i'd be able to sleep. i could just play my ds, though...
i think that's what i'll do...

joe goes back to work on monday... all in all, i think i may miss him being home. i've been feeling distant lately, and last week seemed to bring us a bit closer again. i've heard of some people having babies together to "save" their relationships. those people are dumb. dumb, dumb, dumb. maybe it could work for someone else, but i doubt i would ever consider it for us. usually, one of us always seems to be in a bad mood, which in turn ruins the other's mood, which makes both of us undeniably bitchy. it's a no-win situation. i've read all the articles, i've watched all the shows, and they all say pretty much the same thing - we need to spend more time together - alone. what makes the situation even harder to deal with though, is that joe doesn't even want to acknowledge the issue. apparently, we're fine... funny thing is, though - i know we're not the only ones going through this - there are articles in almost every parenting/women's magazine i get, and it's addressed weekly, if not daily, on all the mom-type shows. you know - the ones aired between 10 and noon, monday to friday? the shows where every commercial is either diaper/diaper related, for baby food or for personal hygiene products - basically, the type of commercials you would never see during, say, nas-car or wrestling. i mean, why aren't there articles like that in maxim or, well, i don't know many other male-oriented magazines except for playboy and what-not. most are centered around one topic like cars, guns, and other expensive pursuits. maybe if dirt wheels had an article like my today's parent did, though, i wouldn't be in this situation... who knows... and you know, even that angers me! the fact men's magazines and media don't address issues like this and women's media is drowning in it incenses me! it's not fair! it just further emphasizes how much of a guy's guy joe is. he is the epitome of "male", so much so that he is a direct reflection of the magazines he reads. just like i resent him always leaving his socks beside the hamper, his magazines are always beside the rack - never in it, while mine are neatly stacked, almost to the point of being neurotic.
regardless, we had a nice week together as a family. i hope it continues... everything in our life is constantly changing, and will be even more so when i go back to school ( i hate saying "back" to school - i'm not really going "back"... i'm going to college for the first time - it's not like i'm trying it again...). i guess this is what being a grown-up is all about - growing up...
"and the understatement of the year awards goes to..." gosh, i don't even have a speech prepared... i feel like, well, a man! ;)

holy crap... i had no idea it's been this long. it's been well over a month since i've sat down here to write, and honestly, it's not like this is going to be some long, drawn out thing - i've got to wash my face, brush my teeth and get into bed before joey wakes up alone (he hates that!). on the plus side, though, the bedding was washed today; there's nothing like slipping between freshly-washed sheets...
so, the long and short of it (ok, just the short) is i'm going back to school - for journalism. strange, but very true. i'm extremely scared - i mean, i can't even write my blog consecuitively for more than a few weeks. hopefully this will force me to write again. scared, but still excited.
and after my two years of school, well, who knows? hopefully life will be changing for the better now that i have some sort of goal...