betrayal (?)

know what's weird? when you think you're being betrayed but you're not really sure. men always have a way of simplifying things - "why don't you just ask her what's going on?" to tell you the truth, i'm not exactly sure. it could possibly be due to the fact that women are naturally shifty... i think it's feminine instinct to back-stab; it comes from all sides. but why can't i just ask her? basically, i think i'm afraid of the response... but what i can't understand is what the response could possibly be... i'm at a loss and not really sure where to go or what to think right now... i don't know if i should be felling betrayed or... stupid, i guess... stupid and cowardly because big, tough april can't take criticism or some shit like that... but what is the criticism???